Five Years in the Valley of Shadow

Getting very personal today…

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Five years ago today, my heart was broken and bruised.

Five years ago, my son died.

Five years ago, he was six years old.

Five years ago, I was lost.

Today, I am still lost.

I continue to stumble my way through the Valley of the Shadow of Death, trying all the while to pretend like I am a normal human being, capable of life.

I know the Lord is with me, and I am not alone.

Still, I feel alone.

Because life goes on. Time moves on. You adjust. You change. You become. Just like you did when he was born. Just like you did when every new challenge presented itself. You just do. You have responsibilities. You’re still a husband. Still a father. Still a pastor. Still alive. No matter how much you want to run and hide, life just doesn’t allow it, because life goes on…

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Grief

There is something else you should know about me: I struggle with depression that stems from the grief of losing my son. Daniel was six years old when he died on September 11, 2013. He was a special needs child: stemming from an overarching diagnosis of cerebral palsy, he struggled with many things, including quadriplegia … Continue reading Grief